Cycle Day 11

Maybe I was anxious for the day, but truthfully I just really had to pee! I had to get up an hour earlier this morning to pee, but thankfully found a temp adjuster to help me with this. This morning, my fertility friend notes say: 97.02 temp at 4:30 an had to pee so bad. Will use calculated to adjust temp. Temp adjusted with calculator at http://www.whenmybaby.com/basalbodytemperature.php It's a rather peaceful morning. I'm thankful it cooled down to where I was able to stay upstairs in this summer heat. My furbabies are still asleep thank God! And the fed ex package is en route :) It made it's arrival into Ontario and I'm praying for it to get in my hands with no problems :) The day is just beginning, but so far so good... keep it together Dee don't lose your cool, don't stress and let's enjoy this experience. Now I'm on Fed Ex Man Stalker Watch.... LOL!!!

Roller Coaster Ride

This morning was one big roller coaster ride, with my temp going up again, not getting the full three hours rest before temping, it being too freakin hot to sleep upstairs.... calling fed ex to confirm they will bill my account for tomorrow's shipping and having them tell me no and the cost will be $107... trying to contact Todd and let him know what was happening and we may have to postpone and then venting on you tube.. then having Todd call me and call me down and set my mind at ease that my charge on the card will take place after the funds are in the account on friday.... I'm just happy I'm still on track and will now be able to insem Thursday, Friday and Saturday :) Todd is genuine and says he's here with me till we have the baby so I'm thrilled... now I'm just chilling out :)

New Cycle Here we go :)

Five more days to my first insem with TD. I'm rather excited and feel confident and happy about my decision. I know that some will not agree with my becoming a single mother, but this is something I have longed for and I desire to love, raise and nurture my child This round I'm doing pretty much the same supplements as before, but I've added a few new ones, including cassava ovum and fish oil. It's been crazy hot and my appetite just isn't there so I'm going to get some ensure. Grapefruit juice, epo work your wonders for good cm... I also have pre seed to insert before I place the soft cup. Today is CD 6 and today is my parents 56th anniversary. I guess marriage wasn't in the cards for me. I don't know maybe it is, but things have not presented themselves as I once thought they would. Bottom line is I'm getting things in order and preparing for my little girl or boy... I would love to have a daughter, but love and welcome a son too. Twins is also available since I'm taking Cassava Ovum... we'll see :)

Search for a New Donor...

Bleh! My donor is no longer my donor.... Trying to just keep it moving and not stress about this.

Big Ho

So I just had my intravaginal ultrasound and all I can say is... I must be a big ho LOL! The examiner said I would feel pressure and to let her know if it hurt.... didn't feel any pain lol... I actually couldn't even feel the probe LOL! Results will be back in 5 business days to tell me more about what my uterus is looking like and how thick the lining is. I also got insurance that Dr. Gupta takes so I'm soooo HAPPY!!!

Dr.Gupta is truly the BEST! I'm so blessed to have found a doctor who truly cares about my needs. True I once felt Dr. Mba did, but having gone from a doctor who simply said, "You're old" to one who says, "I can help you" is wonderful! My Pap results from last week came back all clean and clear!!!! Dr. Gupta sent me for blood labs today and after being pricked twice, the lovely phlebotomist Susan got my blood sample. I have been fasting all day and I'm starving so I stopped for some clam strips YUMMM! I'm leaving at 3pm to get an ultrasound... I have to drink lots of water.... not looking forward to that... my lap band tummy only hold so much :)

Resolve to going solo...

So far on this journey I've had the accompany of others, but think that it's best just left to B and me. Add too many people into the equasion and things tend to get ugly and complicated. My friends have busy lives and I can't honestly expect them to be there to hold my hand. So I'm working on a couple of things to help me so I can carry on, just me B and the baby soon to come :) xo Desi