Meh....

I want so badly for things to go the way I want them too. This blog is all about my desire and journey to become a mom and while I'm not giving up... I sure wish things could be easier. My Dr's appointment is Tuesday morning. I want to take a test to see if I'm pregnant and this has all been implantation and or a light period.... I don't feel any other symptoms, but starting to believe you can't really trust symptoms anyway :( I'll be sure to tell Dr. that I had spotting that suddenly stopped.... today is very much like that day which means the most flow... which was so little was yesterday. I want an ultrasound of my uterus regarding implantation and check my estrogen and progesterone level Ann is such a dear friend, she is keeping me encouraged that this happens in early pregnancy. I'm so fortunate to have her as my sister and friend! Rob... is I don't know... I opened my heart to this man and he above any other totally broke it.