A sad morning

Sadly bfn.  Dr did a pap and biopsy of endo. Says looks like I have a fibroid near my cervix.  Will have ultrasound next Saturday. Kaiser will not treat me for fertility due to my age.  I just can't stop crying...

Let's go to the Dr and see What's Up...

On my way to the dr.... spotting continued for the three days and yesterday I felt a painful tug on my breast and pinch

ings all day... this morning nothing and my temp has gone done to 98 F.... still over coverline, but I'm so tired of bbt honestly. Fairy dust all! I hope for good report saying I'm pregnant!

Meh....

I want so badly for things to go the way I want them too. This blog is all about my desire and journey to become a mom and while I'm not giving up... I sure wish things could be easier. My Dr's appointment is Tuesday morning. I want to take a test to see if I'm pregnant and this has all been implantation and or a light period.... I don't feel any other symptoms, but starting to believe you can't really trust symptoms anyway :( I'll be sure to tell Dr. that I had spotting that suddenly stopped.... today is very much like that day which means the most flow... which was so little was yesterday. I want an ultrasound of my uterus regarding implantation and check my estrogen and progesterone level Ann is such a dear friend, she is keeping me encouraged that this happens in early pregnancy. I'm so fortunate to have her as my sister and friend! Rob... is I don't know... I opened my heart to this man and he above any other totally broke it.

Looks like CD3

Idk but may be light period :(

No cramps and blood looks fresh and on toilet paper; very little in toilet.  Period smell. Was I getting my hopes up?  Could I still be pregnant and had spotted then my period started. What about that dropped temp this morning? Anyway planning for next cycle.  As much as I hate missing this one I may have to to get days off to do four strait days the beginning of December and maybe the day before this coming cycle... About a week from today... Still hoping for good news at Drs that I'm pregnant.  Friday was just weird and I usually bleed flowing and it doesn't just stop like that day.

I'm hoping this is Implantation 101

Cramps are still not as hurtful as last month but I can feel kinda a dull ache in my uterus.... Still praying for implantation and hoping I'm not stressing over this... “Implantation bleeding (also known as spotting) usually lasts for a couple of days but every woman is different, so how long it lasts can vary. Sometimes it’s less than a day, occasionally it’s longer than a couple of days,” says Dr Rob Hicks. So far mine has been off and on since yesterday... “It’s believed to occur when the fertiised egg attaches to the womb lining. The bleeding is usually lighter than a period, and also happens before the time a period would normally have come,” adds Rob. Bleeding has definitely been lighter than my period and arrived two days early. Implantation bleeding is when the blastocyte (what the ball of cells is called before it becomes an embryo) implants itself into the lining of your womb. It can cause irritation and movement to the lining, which you’ll notice as spotting in your chonies, and you may even experience slight cramping or soreness. OH YEAH FEELING THAT NOW! It occurs at around four weeks of pregnancy (RIGHT WHERE I AM), which is why many moms-to-be sometimes mistake it for menstruation. Occasionally moms-to-be can continue to have a light period for the first month or two after they get pregnant, so it’s worth taking a pregnancy test around the time your first period is due. If the bleeding becomes painful or particularly uncomfortable, you should seek out medical advice. I'm seeing my DR Tuesday and want a blood test done Here's what some ladies have to say: SammyJayden “My first pregnancy I had implantation bleeding for five days, and during my second pregnancy it lasted only a few hours” fall3n-ang3l “I had bleeding for three days and at first I thought it was my period coming. I started to suspect I was pregnant when I didn’t get cramps or anything, and the blood was brown in colour" wannaother “I experienced spotting with one of my children (I have four), and it was a very odd experience. It seemed to start off quite red, fade to pink and then to brown, and I had some light stomach cramps” hi i am 7weeks+3 days and i had bleeding for about 3days, shortly before i found out i was preg, where i didnt have any period type pains or symptoms, i thought this was my period coming and started to suspect i might be preg when i didnt get cramp or anything.( it was also pink one day and brown the others, sorry a bit too much info!) i think it is 2 weeks after this bleeding you can find out if youre preg, but i might be wrong. i would recommend clear blue digi tests becuase for me they said posotive a good few days before any other brands. hope you get a bfp anyway let us know x hi sirry just thought id change waht i said cause i just realised yu had got a positive result already, im so silly but anyway hope the rest of what i said was helpful to you...must be my pregnancy mushing my brain!!! It's hard to judge with temping since I don't fully trust them, but I've had high temperatures! Last night my boobs were also quite tingly and this morning my nipples are darker too... I'm still too scared to take a HPT and will leave that for the DR visit...

Does this have to be so difficult?

Woke up and temped.... Almost so over bbt....

Well TMI:

Blood on pad was still way scant than my normal period... Which btw is suppose to start Sunday.  There was light blood in bowl. Praying its still just implantation.  Again waiting...

Don't count me out just yet

Okay if you're squeamish, here's your disclaimer: this post is extremely TMI.

Thought it was a light period, but only a little on pad and then later in the day none when I looked in bowl. At night tingly breasts and when I went to the bathroom clear urine and what looked like a long clear strand of discharge.

It's very possible I was spotting and not starting my period.  This makes me very happy, I'm still taking things day by day.  I'm up at 12:30 am watching CatDog and really need to get to sleep!  Set my FF chart back! We'll chart tomorrow and see where things stand.