Changing Verses

Today is such an odd day... I've been knocking around some new ideas in my head... I saw my temp drop this morning and it agitated me a bit feeling out yet again. I'm no longer temping for my own sanity. I'm not due to test until Tuesday when AF is expected. My prayer of course is that she doesn't show and I get a BFP when I test. I'd be lying if I said I wasn't scared of disappointment again. I'm trying to be faithful that God will bless me regardless of how I went about to have this baby. I've been a bit foggy lightheaded today, but not reading much into it. If I am to go another cycle I'm adding a back up into rotation. My goal is to inseminate as much as possible per cycle because I won't be temping at all. This of course changes my love song to my child. But I'm doing this for love all together. I want my child and love my child already.