What is this???

Yesterday at work one little spot and that's it.... this morning a negative test and still blood, not a lot, but blood. Dammit if my period is coming on just do it... I hate this!

My Bbt Break Up

Today is cd24 12dpo and the day I suspect AF will try to show.  I'm so unsure of my expectations but my prayer has been she stays away and tomorrow I get my BFP.  We'll see.  Here we go again....

Changing Verses

Today is such an odd day... I've been knocking around some new ideas in my head... I saw my temp drop this morning and it agitated me a bit feeling out yet again. I'm no longer temping for my own sanity. I'm not due to test until Tuesday when AF is expected. My prayer of course is that she doesn't show and I get a BFP when I test. I'd be lying if I said I wasn't scared of disappointment again. I'm trying to be faithful that God will bless me regardless of how I went about to have this baby. I've been a bit foggy lightheaded today, but not reading much into it. If I am to go another cycle I'm adding a back up into rotation. My goal is to inseminate as much as possible per cycle because I won't be temping at all. This of course changes my love song to my child. But I'm doing this for love all together. I want my child and love my child already.

That old familiar feeling

After so many cycles, it's shameful that I am so familiar with this feeling of af on her way.... I just wanna cry! I totally felt that we times correctly, but for some reason this is just taking longer than I had hoped... IT bothers me because I'm not giving up and feel like I should. I want to move on and have my baby and God always seems to be standing in my way. What happend to my free will to want to be a mom? Why has this been taken away from me?

Pineapple Core

Just cut and ate my first piece of pineapple core. It wasn't as chewy as I thought and was sweet.  I guess I picked a pretty ripe pineapple :)

All Done!

Hooray! Cycle there's Baby Dancing is done! I'm praying and believing for a healthy happy baby in August of next year! #ibelieveinthepowerofprayer

Afternoon Delight

Today is the second day bd during the fertile days and what's super weird is last night when I checked my cervix it was medium soft with (excuse my tmi) gobs of egg white cm.  this morning when I checked she's high and soft and cm was quite scant but you know how you can fell the wetness? That's how I feel.

Well we'll find out shortly when he comes home for a nooner :)